Hello

It's been ages I'm not writing here.

Many things happened, and now I don't even know how to start to tell and write down the stories here, LoL

But I think I'll start with: My Dad passed away, right twenty five days ago.

Yes. That was ono of the most shcking reality for me.

Everything happened so damn fast, unexpected.

I mean, a part of me already axpected about wether him or I will die first, but when that actually happened, another part of me was shaked and shocked.

That was crazy day that I could even move or stand by my own. My mindwas clear and aware with anything happened around me, but my whole body felt weak and just don't want to move or even function. I just completely lied on bed, cried out the heavy feeling in me, created a scenes for people around me to watched and look me pitifully and I didn't even care.

It took me two days to collect my sense and at the third day I already felt I was okay. Or at least I could [rocess anything just happened .

But still, even until now the traces of my Dad still linger on my mind and every part of this house.
I still can remember his look for the last time, how he laid unconfortably when I found him breathless that morning, anything.

I want to cry, but I think I also don't want too.

Another story from me is, now I'm in the middle of mapping my mind and repairing myself, my life, my habbits, and my mindset.

I'm in the middle of learning how to learn.

I'm in the middle of taking care and programming my mindset.

I read Limitless book by Jim Kwik and learn to follow his every tips in Kwik Start segments.

Oh, and right now, I have my best friend, spirit friend sitting right beside me.
She came to my house two days ago and will go home tomorrow.

I'm happy she's here. When we are together, we can manage and do our own bussiness and not talking, but also when we talking together we can really talk with no phones. In other words, she's being here already make me happy.